and even then I often fail!!
One day I had spent the entire morning doing housework, cleaning, straightening, cooking, and yes, even tackling the kids' playroom!! Finally the afternoon came with naps completed I was determined to enjoy some outside time with the kids before dinner.
Then it happened.... tired of cleaning I stepped into the girls' room to get Nate and I saw another mess!! ANOTHER mess!!
Totally out of frustration, I fussed with the girls and demanded that they clean the messy room (that should have already been done!).
A little voice responded back, "Mom, you are bossy!"
Skipping over more "crazy mother" antics - like sending the child to a Dad who had NO clue what was happening - I decided she needed to apologize before she could come to play.
She immediately accepted her "apology task" and got to work writing a letter to me by herself (since I was now outside with the others).
Before I share the note....
I was (attempting to) correct my daughter's sassy attitude towards me. We don't allow our children to speak ugly to us...
BUT we also (try not to) speak harshly, in anger or ugly to our children either. And so while waiting for this "letter" from Anna I was SOOOOO convicted that I was really the one who needed the attitude adjustment and be giving the apologies as well.
Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice...
Oh... I'm not even going to count how many of those I was guilty of in that ONE moment... I just know I was GUILTY!!
And my sweet (but sometimes sassy) daughter is soo loving and forgiving of me:
**excuse her spelling... she had to sound out the words by herself**
When she brought me the note. I read it with her standing next to me. I barely saw the misspellings, but my heart just broke. I was soo filled with thankfulness over my precious little girl, her willingness to forgive and for her love for me... her wanting-to-be-always-loving and kind mother who often isn't.
I teared up an apology to her and held her close. And thanked her for forgiving me. And giggled over being loved "more than sandwiches"!
...but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
Learning to balance obedience and grace, cleanliness and playtime.
Learning to parent with loving firmness and a quiet request.
I've got a LONG way to go!!!